A patient lying on the operation theater table, nervous, shivering, anxious and frightened. The moment doctor comes in the room, patient holds his hand and says, Doctor, please take care of me, this is first time ever I am going through an operation. Doctor, very calmly says-You are not alone, this is my first time too.
First step, first time, icebreaker these things have always been a challenge for me. I was always afraid of taking first step. Even I was afraid of proposing to my girlfriend who is my wife now.We have been married for close to 20 years now. You now know that my struggle has been going on at-least for 20 years. You are smart people, you can read between the lines. We met 5 years before we got married, see again, you are smart people immediately added 5 more years to my struggle. Everyone in the relationship can relate to my struggle, there has been situations where I had few words with my wife and then she had few paragraphs with me. But it’s a sweet struggle. I am talking about the real struggle with mindset that we carry with us.
Anyways coming back to why I was afraid of taking the first step. It was because of fear of failure. Here comes a thought, along with that here comes the fear and then a battle of thoughts and fears. In my case fear always won. There was a time during my high school and undergraduate days I used to spend most of the time on the couch we had in our home. Favorite position was just staring towards ceiling and keep thinking.I am sure I was not counting stars as I was indoor.
Life went on like that, I had kids, got married, started working. Just change the sequence, Job, Marriage and Kids. But there was no purpose in my life, there was no specific direction in my life. It was kind of driving on a road without a GPS and not knowing where to go. I never consulted anyone, I fought with the problems on my own, I always felt alone. I never realized that actually I am not alone, I was just not taking the first step. There are people around me, my family, friends, teachers, mentors, leaders whom I can approach and seek help and direction. It was all in my mind and thoughts.
In 2014, I decided that it is enough. I cannot lead my life without a purpose and without a direction. I watched thousands of videos of successful people, gone through their interviews and read lot of books. I worked on myself and on my mindset. I have set up CLASS goals for myself. We should lead our life in style and class, right? My CLASS goals are Communication, Leadership, Awareness & Acceptance, Social Networking & Sustainability.
Now my purpose is to spread a message about winning mindset. I am writing a book and targeting to get that published by end of next month. I am sharing my experience and learning in that book.
I wanted to share my message with people who give up and find it difficult to get up and move on. I wanted to tell them that you are not alone.
Every year there are close to 50,000 suicide attempts in USA alone, I want to spread a message that it does not matter where we are right now, it is never too late to reach where you want to reach and in this journey, you are not alone.